Thursday, December 25, 2003
Yes, I'm alive. Sorry about that.
Sorry I haven't been posting either. :-P
Happy fucking Holidays, assholes.
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Sorry I haven't been posting either. :-P
Happy fucking Holidays, assholes.
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Thursday, November 27, 2003
Have a Happy T-day. If ya want to.
Not to happy lately. I'm in between coping with new stuff and not knowing how to do it. It makes recording even the most peripheral information about my life a chore. I'm kinda shell-shocked with new info. Maybe after I get things scraped together a little..
Felling a little guilty today ??
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Not to happy lately. I'm in between coping with new stuff and not knowing how to do it. It makes recording even the most peripheral information about my life a chore. I'm kinda shell-shocked with new info. Maybe after I get things scraped together a little..
Felling a little guilty today ??
Wednesday, November 19, 2003
Welp. O.k. Went to GIRCNA VII last weekend. Lotsa Iowa Peeps from Des Moines, Mason City and us Quackners. I just wanted a weekend away, so I wasn't disappointed. But. The 2nd most important thing [behind the "program" or scheduling] about a convention is the layout of the hotel itself. Anything Jumers [Post-Jumers] sucks. The Chateau could have been worse, but man. The pool was on the 1st floor, the lobby the 2nd, the "hospitality" room, the 3rd. At least the allleged "workshops", speaker meetings and Buffet were all in the same "wing" but their wansn't anywhere for addicts go go smoke and congregate. No chance for random socialization. The Holiday Inn will be much better. Oops. I've gotta go. Appointment in an hour. and I smell bad.
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Monday, November 10, 2003
My Life is pathetic.
It's only this big |-------| .
But I'm working on changing that so don't say ima whinin'.
Semi busy day. Don's to fix plumbing, Luis' to fix PC, and Julie who's gonna have to fix herself.
Then maybe an 8 o'clock.
First day of group tomorrow. In my illustrious career of being broken, I've never really been in a "professional" group therapy setting. I'll prolly be told that I'm acting inappropriately before I walk in the door. Which would be true. But how did they know..??
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It's only this big |-------| .
But I'm working on changing that so don't say ima whinin'.
Semi busy day. Don's to fix plumbing, Luis' to fix PC, and Julie who's gonna have to fix herself.
Then maybe an 8 o'clock.
First day of group tomorrow. In my illustrious career of being broken, I've never really been in a "professional" group therapy setting. I'll prolly be told that I'm acting inappropriately before I walk in the door. Which would be true. But how did they know..??
Friday, November 07, 2003
A week without posting. Ima slacker. Sue me, shit-for-brains.
I now have a social worker, a LMSW named Amy. I'm starting into a new support group, focus not listed here.
I'm addressing issues, and so I'm turning left AGAIN. Prolly explains my inattention to this and other people/things in my life: I've got things floating around in my head, and it's distracting seeing turds floating by.....
Maybe pills will help...
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I now have a social worker, a LMSW named Amy. I'm starting into a new support group, focus not listed here.
I'm addressing issues, and so I'm turning left AGAIN. Prolly explains my inattention to this and other people/things in my life: I've got things floating around in my head, and it's distracting seeing turds floating by.....
Maybe pills will help...
Friday, October 31, 2003
Wow. What a whirlwind.
Went to Chicago Wednesday with Don, just for the hell of it. Caught a meeting in Oak Park, and got a pizza. Meeting was good, pizza was bad. Jalapeno with meats. Tasted o.k.[thin crust sux], but I paid for it Thursday on the trip to St. Louis with Rhonda, Chris and Dale. What was the point of the St. L trip? I dunno, but we stopped by the Show Me RSO and blew 1200 bucks. Then to the Arch, where Ronnie, Chris and I stuffed ourselves into the tiny round elevator car and enjoyed a few nausiating few minutes at the top. The wind was blowing about 30 MPH, and the sway was just enough to make me woozy. We also stopped by Union Station and were intercepted by an addict named Gil who worked there at a Rock on/Beetles for sale shop, and he directed us to a meeting. Anyway, I had 3 painfull bowel movements during the trip and I didn't feel better till we got back in the van to head home.
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Went to Chicago Wednesday with Don, just for the hell of it. Caught a meeting in Oak Park, and got a pizza. Meeting was good, pizza was bad. Jalapeno with meats. Tasted o.k.[thin crust sux], but I paid for it Thursday on the trip to St. Louis with Rhonda, Chris and Dale. What was the point of the St. L trip? I dunno, but we stopped by the Show Me RSO and blew 1200 bucks. Then to the Arch, where Ronnie, Chris and I stuffed ourselves into the tiny round elevator car and enjoyed a few nausiating few minutes at the top. The wind was blowing about 30 MPH, and the sway was just enough to make me woozy. We also stopped by Union Station and were intercepted by an addict named Gil who worked there at a Rock on/Beetles for sale shop, and he directed us to a meeting. Anyway, I had 3 painfull bowel movements during the trip and I didn't feel better till we got back in the van to head home.
Wednesday, October 29, 2003
Tuesday, October 28, 2003
o.k., I'll post. Erm.
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* Water Drip*
Wow. It's dark in here. I'm scared.
Just got off Travy's site. I'm pissed at the system. Makes my head hurt.
Ah, Fuck it. Random link.
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* Water Drip*
Wow. It's dark in here. I'm scared.
Just got off Travy's site. I'm pissed at the system. Makes my head hurt.
Ah, Fuck it. Random link.
Wednesday, October 22, 2003
Welp, I need a part-time job. Theo's R.I has had a sign on their door for a week. Maybe I can just do 20-30 hrs/wk there. I'll try to pick up an app this afternoon. Gotta put front shocks on Johnnies Granada today also.
Am now sponsoring a female. Yes, she likes girls. She's pretty cool: positive attitude, has hope she can change. Clean 13 days off the street, followed Elizibeth in. She's like me in the way that I already believed that things really could be better when I got here. Step one will be tough. Tis difficult to be really let go of the the idea that you can keep yourself clean when your not in the middle of the shit-storm.
Eh. Waste your day HERE.
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Am now sponsoring a female. Yes, she likes girls. She's pretty cool: positive attitude, has hope she can change. Clean 13 days off the street, followed Elizibeth in. She's like me in the way that I already believed that things really could be better when I got here. Step one will be tough. Tis difficult to be really let go of the the idea that you can keep yourself clean when your not in the middle of the shit-storm.
Eh. Waste your day HERE.
Friday, October 17, 2003
Julie B. passed this morning around 5:am, surrounded by family and friends. Lotsa NA folks were stopping by all day, even people I haven't seen in awhile. Still about 5 people there at 1:30am when we left to get Tiffany home. Terry called to let me know about 6:am. Arrangements pending.
"See ya later Julie"
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"See ya later Julie"
